
Originally Posted by
408Mike
I am flat out going.
Few things occurred to me-
#1 The fact both my mom and aunt both hate the idea tells me GOGOGOGO
#2 Sonatine can be a prick, at times, but it's never been in question he only dishes out solid life advice. For me, he's given me bits and pieces here and there and then given up (time and again) and I can only surmise that at this point, I need to make something of what's being given to me.
#3 Dave (rummy) is literally so spot on about everything he says about me, it's scary most of the time. He was telling me something I couldn't get my mind around, but makes sense now- I am a child. I am literally a fucking baby, not even a grown man, and I KNOW it, the thing is I wasn't able to put my finger on why precisely.
Now I know, I'm still my mothers fucking child. Gross!
My aunt is warming to the idea, as long as I have a plan, so I'll be in touch. I plan to get the fuck outta dodge within a week or so, not sure if I need to work first to put away cash or if my aunt will loan me (she's capable, it's on me to sell her on the idea it's not a losing proposition)
I swear on my life today was a fucking breaking point, I broke inside watching my now 52 year old mother wandering around with me place to place, paying for everything, and I know in my heart she loves me to DEATH and I am literally preventing her from getting old with grace and stature.
I gotta make it on my own, if not for me nor for Skatz, for my mother no doubt.