Hey whatever, can I claim disability or something and be replaced as the sites whipping boy and scapegoat for everyhthing that goes wrong AND the shinnig example of everything that is wrong with the human race?
*ahem*
And Mike cracked it under the pressure of being unable to justifying his fucking transparent pedophila and in the space of a couple posts, wrote that children are in the best position to chose to be exploited and only posts apart, that children have no right to choose. OF COURSE. Were his words. THEY'RE CHILDREN.
I mean, what kills me isn't the way he's twisted my words, the crafty way he's not changed what I said, which means I can't claim he's lying, but he is inserting a hidden motive or meaning behind things I said to use for his purposes.
I might be able to oh I dunno ,DEFEND MYSELF, but that's for another day, the day he asks me back or green lights it personally. Today, I just want to point out (aside from the fact I am not a pedophile) that I was basically admitting that priests are elevated to a position of trust which can easily be manipulated for some sick perverts private uses. He's chopped the posts I made and I think it went something like children are vulnerable in particular because society has this status quo of being incompetant and sucking mommy's teet for survival and incapable of making ANY important decisions until midnight the morning of their x birthday, maybe 16 maybe 18 who knows. This is largely done precisely because they can not often make big decisions, because oh It's too obvious to say, the point I am making is that it's just as unfair to me that I be denied my voice while he's saying things about me and yet, I should be held to a higher standard (one that I will rise to just to be the bigger man and hopefully end the BS once and for all)
So Druff, when you ask why do I bring the drama there here, the above is a great example, and it's something that happens a lot. The person I quoted is actually not doing it to spite me, as I used to believe, there is an important point he wants to make and I fit into many molds, having no real identity of my own, always borrowing and never having anything of my own. What he is saying is not terribly important so much as can I defend myself and have a say when things are said which make me look potentially bad, like I dunno. Being accused of pedophilia, that might be bad enough to get me motivated in wanting the right to defend myself against slander, should such a thing happen.
It's not right to dump drama onto your forum just because everyone reads all the boards, I admit that, and apologize for doing it. Also ever time I see a "druff is this true" or insert whoevers name, I know you hate them and they never happened prior to my making the threads to tapper and gay sex, and for that I apologize.
Also having given it much thought you are right in never having trolled me, I appreicate you handling that with the sense of calm and respectfullness that you did, despite my volleying fairly infamitory accusations. I was both very sure and very emotional that I had what I said right, had you done something with less class, like banning me outright or calling me an idiot and changing my avatar etc, I would have reacted really bad for a couple of days, and in the end still know you were right and have yet more useless out of control posts to regret having made.
I try to be sane, rational, intelligent, logical, insightful and wherever possible, helpful. It's an uphill battle every day that I win and lose but rest assured you win in spots like this because even my BPD gets overulled by my photographic memory and your having taken the time to ground me while I was manic will stick, I'll make the best effort possible to ensure that and trust you as I used to.
It seems like trust is one of the keys to understanding all the mess upstairs, the less I trust the people I am interacting with the easier it is to go manic, especially if I feel I am being taken advantage of.
Go figure I spend most of my time on forums populated with people I will never trust...trust me, I know how smart I am NOT.