I also have to say that this paragraph concerns me:
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Also, let me say that at least one member of this community knows where I work, my girlfriends name, etc and has contacted me with threats and while that person may have accelerated this process it is not only because of that person, who I have no idea the identity of, that I am here. I would be here at some point this season regardless. If someone should go ahead and take actions that result in my employer deciding that I am not worth the headache and I lose my job, or actions that cause my girlfriend to no longer share a life with me and change my living situation those actions will not change the fact that I owe the people that I owe and still intend on paying them, however, they will force me to start back at square one again and drag this out even further. So while I understand that it is something that I probably would deserve the end result will be me being even further away from the end game of making everyone whole and it would take even longer to get back to where I am today. I would request that as long as I am fulfilling my responsibilities that my work, loved ones and friends be left completely alone. If at some point I don't fulfill them without a reasonable explanation than I would understand. Any money that I pay back isn't "hush money", my story and the things that I have done are still very accessible to anyone with any sort of curiosity and the ability to do a simple internet search. I would just like minimal interference in tackling my debts from people who think that the proper route to go is to attempt to force me to lose anything I have been able to put together to this point.
So this makes me concerned that the $250 isn't so much "hush money" is it is "stall money". By Jasep's own admission, much of the reason he is here is because he was found and threatened by one of the victims, rather than a sudden desire to make things right. (He claims the latter is also a factor, but I'm not sure I believe that.)
The question here, and one that can't be easily answered, is whether Jasep simply wants to hold off the dogs until May (and finds it worth $250 to do so), or if these payments are going to become a regular thing.
Jasep, I hope you understand that you're going to make everyone even angrier if you claim that monthly payments are forthcoming, and then once again disappear after the first one.
In all fairness, I agree he is dead wrong in blaming anyone other than Jasep. IMO though he is just fucking around, and for all I know laughs at the death wishes, and might even write some of the crazy things he says hoping it will annoy people to the point where they wish death on him. I was more curious about why someone would get annoyed by it to the point where they say those things to him, that's all.Quote: